Beach Bunny

This photo was taken about a week ago for my good friend Nadine Bunny.  She is using it to enter ZOO Weekly magazine’s Beach Girl of the Year competition.

I’m just so proud of it, I thought I’d post it here

 

 

Click it – it’s big!

Full Circle

 

Man, how I’ve neglected you! 

I realise I’ve been a bad boy, not blogging every significant and insignificant thing that has happened to me this year, but there’s just been no time – and more to the point, no desire on my behalf.  I don’t really know why, but less and less I feel the urge to write here.

Mercifully,  the school year is nearing its end.  Since the school of medicine has an annual timetable that is roughly double the normal undergraduate timetable, it’s been a little exhausting.  That, and you know – life. 

The beginning of the year was a little bit stressful, and saw me dealing with a significant death in the family, as well as being forced to meet new people and forge new friendships.  This can be a little difficult when you tend to resist change.  Not only this, but I had started living with two new housemates – both of whom I was going to see on a daily basis because they were studying with me at the medical school.

It was about that time that I started having health issues – both of a physical and mental nature.  Eventually the crazy couldn’t always be contained, and the cat was out of the bag there.  Lucky, that seems to have passed, which probably informs the next point.

I had decided that I’d had enough of living like a monk and met a boy.  We had a few similar interests, and it was nice to be whatever we were – I still don’t know.  I decided that, because of this, I could probably tell the people that matter to me that I was gay.  I had always thought I’d be too scared to ever do it, but I guess I was wrong.

I came up with the idea for a school based health program for young children, and pitched it to HOPE4HEALTH, a health related charity group at the university.  They loved the idea, and have left it up to me to coordinate.  Now there is a committee of about 20 people, which is scary and incredibly cool at the same time.  I was elected to be the secretary of HOPE4HEALTH next year.  Mainly because nobody else was nominated, but whatever.

Now my headspace is heading into unchartered territory.  It’s great though, I can honestly say I’ve never felt so happy in my life.  I’ve gone from feeling inadequate and completely out of control to content and happy, all in the one year.

Now I’m in a frame of mind to set some goals:

Pass medicine. 

Find the right man.

Work my ass off for this Kid’s program. 

 

It’s all going to be hard, but at least it feels do-able.  At least I feel good about what’s coming.

 

Cheers,

Adrian.

The Hardest Button to Button

 

The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life – beyond a doubt – was to tell my family that I was gay.

Just a couple of weeks ago I was questioned about it by a family member, and of course I denied it.  One of my roommates – who is the least observant person I know – had also asked me on numerous occasions, and of course I denied it then, too.  But in the last couple of weeks, things had changed and I no longer wanted to be a liar.

So now I’ve told my parents and sister, and my close friends.  As far as I’m concerned, they’re all that matter, and when I say they – I mean their opinions.  It’s not like I’m proud to be gay (are you proud to be straight?), but I don’t want the relationships that I have with these people to change.  But I know this isn’t up to me.

I’m going to change, but only in a small way.  I don’t want anyone to worry, because the only thing that’s going to change is my openness about my sexuality; my personality is still the same.  I’m not going to suddenly stop drinking beer or eating beef jerky, or stop liking fishing.  That stuff is the real me.  Checking out girls?  Not so much.  So it will be an adjustment, but hopefully not a big deal.

I guess I have to understand that others might take a while to adjust, but hey – that’s not my problem, is it?

 

Cheers,

Doctor007.